6 am colorgenics…

I’ve been up all night, playing WWII online, working on my website, thinking about the meaning of life, redoing the DHTML resume on the website, redoing my *own* resume…Meg’s SO right…my old resume stinks on ice…it only got me work because there were so few candidates, and so many jobs! I’m hoping that the new, improved resume will generate at least one small nibble…

So, anyway, on to the Colorgenics du Jour…

You are in a state of constant expectation … and want interesting and exciting things to happen to you. But in fact you are a “Walter Mitty” at times….a dreamer – over imaginative and often given to fantasy or day-dreaming. There is nothing wrong in “dreaming”… how boring life would be if one just followed the doctrines of everyday life – but one must not continue leading a life of continuous fantasy – you need to face reality in spite of all its possible shortcomings.

You are a leader and possibly at this tine in a position of authority. But you are experiencing problems … You are not quite sure how to handle the present situation .. .

For some time now it would seem that you are frustrated and emotionally inhibited. The circumstances which appear to be beyond your control are making it very difficult for you to develop a detached emotional attitude that you seek…

As of late, you have been experiencing untold stress .. and this is a result of continuous frustration … You haven’t been taking care of all your physical needs… and it’s beginning to show. It would seem that you have a need to find someone to whom you can really relate … someone perhaps whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different …. to be individualistic … to stand out from the common herd. Your inherent control of your sensual instincts is restricting your ability to give yourself to open up freely…. but this, being on your own, this being lonely ..often makes you feel the need to give up some of your strict standards to surrender to the general flow – to be like everyone else; a part of the herd. Deep down you regard such instincts as weaknesses to be overcome. You would like to be loved or admired for yourself alone. You demand recognition and tender loving care.

You are putting on a show .. a facade. You are a master of demonstrating considerable charm in the hope that this can or will lead to better things… Deep down – you are fearful that this may not work and that you may have to employ other strategies in order to realise all your ambitions.