Meg had an interview this morning, that went really well.. Woke up in a *TERRIBLE* mood, down in the dumps, really just wanting to run away for a while…to where, to what, I have no clue… got on Monster/DICE/Hotjobs/Headhunter/IGoCareers, and found a couple prospects…not much though…that didn’t help the mood terribly…kinda helped in some ways (at least there were prospects), kinda hurt in others (there weren’t that many prospects…)
I think I’m going to call Office Team tomorrow, and see if they can do something getting me into something… At this point, *ANYTHING* would help…
Maurice is out of town, so we can’t discuss anything with him in regards to the house…it’ll have to wait until he gets back…
Kat wrote us this *horrible* letter and gave it to us on Tuesday, basically saying that she didn’t want to be a part of our family whatsoever, and that she’d sooner go and live with Shiela or a foster family before she’d want to come back here…so, we had to sit on *that* until today… Went to her therapy session, Meg didn’t go… It was exhausting, to say the least… I don’t think I’ve *ever* been fishing down to rock bottom like this ever before… I expressed that I was *definitely* feeling unsure that back home was what was best for Kathlene…and the Therapist asked me what I felt was best for *ME*… and I kind of had this moment… I’d never really considered that… I guess I’ve been feeling like I should be so concerned what’s best for Kat that my own needs were so totally unimportant. That I should basically be willing to martyr myself for The Interest Of The Child… Meg’s asked many times what *I* want…but I always figured that what I *want* is unimportant in consideration of what’s Best For Kat… it was a revealing moment for me…what’s *BEST* for *ME*… Gotta think about that one long and hard…
Now we gotta get that hair inta tiny braids with colorful ribbons and you will be all set. hehe
*ducks*